Kaisan Comments
Kanoma
I couldn't sleep and soon enough it
was day. This day though, I felt sick to my stomach. I don't really
like daytime but since the day was clear I had to open the curtains.
While I was at it, I opened up the window and breathed in the outside
air. After this it seemed foolish to think about sleeping.
Caught in the gap of the window frame
were sakura petals.
This year was short, too.
Do I like sakura? Do I not like sakura?
Even now, I'm not sure. Every year I see sakura and I feel dokidoki,
but am I happy? Am I sad? Am I scared? I don't know. But there is
one thing that is certain, when petals fall I think to myself,
'I hate that.' In the gentle breeze the petals flutter and dance,
their pink colors scattering is pretty, but after that, the petal-less
and green leafy tree isn't so pretty. This situation feels as though
many petals have fallen. If they were to always bloom, I could surely
say I liked them. If they were to never fall, their existence would
become meaningless and I would have to hate them. But would I still
feel dokidoki if I were to see those unfallen sakura? I . . . want
everyone to feel dokidoki. There is only one meaning and whether it's
a simple dokidoki or a complicated dokidoki, I don't know. The kaisan
is soon and Fatima will become a thing without a form. Did we fully
bloom? Surely no one knows this. Because there is no way of knowing
this.
The end will be broken into small pieces.
No one will have any regrets.
Someday, when you're feeling a little
stuffy and you go to greet the new morning by opening your curtains,
there will be warm sunlight outside. And when you open up your window,
in the gap of your window frame you will find bright sparkling pieces.
And then, when you feel dokidoki (for us)**, it will be okay.
It
will all be okay.
[**
He uses 'kureru' which implies the action being done for him/Fatima]
4GE
I
want to eventually cry about everything.
I want to eventually laugh about everything.
The
world is uncertain.
After all, nothing's changed.
No, everything's changed after all.
Possibly, nothing has changed after all.
After all, I was able to be 4ge.
After all, I was able to play in Fatima.
After all, I was 4ge.
After all, 4ge became me.
After all, I like that voice.
After all, I like that companion.
After all, I like that punk.
After all, I like that smiling face.
After all, I like this group.
I
want to eventually cry about everything.
I want to eventually laugh about everything.
I
was Fatima's 4ge.
Through Fatima I was able to express myself.
I worry about Fatima.
Since I was in Fatima, I was able to do things.
Things only for Fatima.
Because it was Fatima.
For those who have supported Fatima.
For those who haven't supported Fatima.
For those who have seen Fatima.
For those who didn't try to see Fatima.
For those who heard Fatima's music.
For those who didn't try to hear Fatima's music.
For those who had fun with Fatima.
For those who didn't have fun with Fatima.
For 4ge who had fun with Fatima.
For me who had fun with Fatima.
Thank you for everything.
There
is a time I do want to cry after all.
There is a time I do want to laugh after all.
The time that I want to cry will come after all.
The time that I want to laugh will come after all.
After all, I am always serious.
The world is always uncertain.
Through the impermanence of things, time goes by.
Mizuha
In
these seven years, I've grown and had many experiences and been moved
many times because of Fatima. Fatima having to disband is wasteful
in my honest opinion. However, in order to continue growing we decided
the best way would be to disband. Because it was so sudden, fans probably
think this is a bad thing but Fatima is never going to be lost. Because
it will remain in all of your hearts as well as all of the member's
hearts. The kaisan isn't here yet and there is still time left, so
please continue loving Fatima till the end.
Lay
We've
been together for 7 years. I've been with Kanoma and Mizuha for about
8, or 9 years.
However,
I haven't considered Fatima being gone, most of my life has revolved
around Fatima, and it's been Fatima when doing anything. I thought
we would always continue on. I thought you'd understand someday. I'd
be able to go anywhere with the visual kei I liked... but I don't
know visual pop. It's as though I slip into a completely different
country.
Even
now, I like Fatima, and it's important to me, and I still find it
incredibly cool. However, there's just no way to come to an agreement.
Music should be an honest thing. If I were to deceive this thought,
and presented myself at a show giving it 100% that would be the worst
crime to commit.
I
know when something is lost. And then, I know when it is possible
to progress. Using what Kurt wrote in his will, "It is better
to burn out, than to fade away."
It
is because of you that we came so far. Thank you.
Towa
The kaisan conclusion has been announced,
but when I look at it realistically, I am scared and helpless. I don't
want to break up. There's still a lot more left to do. I want to surpass
what I did last year. I want to do this with everyone. The five of
us make music together, and I want to continue doing so. This is an
honest feeling.
However, I don't want to continue doing
Fatima if it will crush the possibilities of the members. I wouldn't
want to do it with anyone else. This is also an honest feeling.
It would not be Fatima if one of us
was missing. The existance of every member is such an important thing.
I love Kanoma.
I love 4ge.
I love Mizuha.
I love Lay.
I love Fatima.
I love all of you.
October
31st, 2002. That live that I will never forget and then the two and
a half years that passed after. Going into Fatima it was a completely
new thing and I was desperate to follow the other members. I was frantic.
A tough and sad ordeal, but with the members by me I was able to overcome
it. There is two more months until June. As for Fatima's Towa, I want
to frantically run to the end. I want to burn everything into my memory
for the rest of my life, and have it be left in my heart. Until the
end I want to see the best smiling faces. My own smiling face will
be for all of you. I love you all.